what would it be like to have a straightforward uncomplicated relationship with gender and sexuality? I sure as fuck don’t know. >.<
@travellinglemonworkshop said: you and me both … it’s like, every time I think I have myself figured out, I realize that puzzle piece A could also fit into a different slot if I turn it around a bit …
this particular time for me it’s “I saw a thing, and now I’m re-re-re-evaluating whether or not there is a possibility that I might actually be a trans dude because seeing the thing gave me a weird genderfeel that I was not expecting to have”
I suspect I’m going to again conclude that while I do have some “maybe I’d rather be a guy” feels sometimes (and sometimes they’re… significant), actually transitioning would be more trouble than it’s worth for me and I would probably not be happier being stuck as a guy than I am being stuck as a girl, I just really wish I had a magic ring that I could put on when I want to have a dick and a beard instead of a pussy and tits”.
YOU AND ME BOTH. (Though, let’s be honest here, I would wear the hell out of that damn ring.)
Or hell, even just a ring that acted as a “have/don’t have boobs” switch.
Honestly if i ever got a genie-wish or a faerie-favor or something… shapeshifting powers. That’s the first thing on my list.
I’d also absolutely take an offer of “you can test-drive being male for a week, and then at the end of the week you get to decide what you want to be permanently for the rest of your life” because then… even though my ideal would be to keep the ability to switch when I want to… at least I’d have actual data for comparison on the merits of each on which to base a final decision.
Sometimes I sorta envy people who just know they’re binary-trans because while they still gotta deal with a lot of aggravating bullshit… at least they have clarity, ya know? I mean, I realize this might be some “grass is greener” nonsense but nonetheless it occurs in my head sometimes.
Even us binary trans sometimes have our issues tho.
Cuz like, I’d take a dick if it were a cisdude dick… but the science isn’t there for me, personally, to be happy with a surgically attached one. (no, not even a transplant.) Especially with all the nerve issues and scarring and whatnot. Just… no thank you.
and sometimes I don’t despise my chest cuz I have awesome sensation and sometimes that’s fun. But like… on the other hand… god what wouldn’t I do to just have some scientist implant my brain and memories into a different body holy SHIT
Like I said, I realize it might be some “grass is greener” shit. I don’t envy ALL the crap you guys have to deal with, but… yeah, clarity about WHAT EVEN AM I would be really nice to have.
And I hear ya on the surgical issues. Even at peak “I want a dick and everything that goes with it” Mood I’m still like “but I’d want it to be like a cisdude dick tho, not one with nerve issues and all that and also I’m really unsure about what T would do to my voice and also I already hate how much body hair I have and shaving sucks, but then on the other hand I’d probably look amazing with the right kinda beard (and given my general predisposition to being hairier than average for my existing hormone balance I could probably attain a decent one), and also dudely fat distribution and an easier time building muscle sounds Great… but then also I’d want a broader chest and there is not even any kinda surgery for THAT”
There’s no surgery for it, no, but tbh there have been 20s+ trandudes who have seen chest growth as part of the changes effected by T, but that’s not really a statistic that’s super common. Though you CAN apparently lose up to eight inches off your hips which *kisses fingers* honey I am SO GAME for… cuz mine are 40in and my ass is HUGE and tbh… I’d love a dorito body~
Also I am with you on the body hair holy FUCK I do not want it… nor am I super into genital growth but yanno at this point it’s worth it for the voice and fat redistribution and, potentially, easier muscle growth. All I want is to pass tbph.
genres are OUTDATED. i sort my music by thottiness, jammability, rebelliousness, theatricality, and depression.
the emo trinity’s average song stats
mcr
fob
patd
as you can see, no one really touches patd for thottiness, but mcr is the only viable choice for an apocalypse anthem. fob is the most well-rounded of the three, but given that they have neither depression, thottiness, nor rebelliousness above an 8 they can occasionally fall shallow philosophically speaking.
‘but where is gayness on this chart?’ you ask, like a moron. rebellion, theatre, thothood, jamming, and depression are the five component parts of every gay worth their salt. next question.
what would it be like to have a straightforward uncomplicated relationship with gender and sexuality? I sure as fuck don’t know. >.<
@travellinglemonworkshop said: you and me both … it’s like, every time I think I have myself figured out, I realize that puzzle piece A could also fit into a different slot if I turn it around a bit …
this particular time for me it’s “I saw a thing, and now I’m re-re-re-evaluating whether or not there is a possibility that I might actually be a trans dude because seeing the thing gave me a weird genderfeel that I was not expecting to have”
I suspect I’m going to again conclude that while I do have some “maybe I’d rather be a guy” feels sometimes (and sometimes they’re… significant), actually transitioning would be more trouble than it’s worth for me and I would probably not be happier being stuck as a guy than I am being stuck as a girl, I just really wish I had a magic ring that I could put on when I want to have a dick and a beard instead of a pussy and tits”.
YOU AND ME BOTH. (Though, let’s be honest here, I would wear the hell out of that damn ring.)
Or hell, even just a ring that acted as a “have/don’t have boobs” switch.
Honestly if i ever got a genie-wish or a faerie-favor or something… shapeshifting powers. That’s the first thing on my list.
I’d also absolutely take an offer of “you can test-drive being male for a week, and then at the end of the week you get to decide what you want to be permanently for the rest of your life” because then… even though my ideal would be to keep the ability to switch when I want to… at least I’d have actual data for comparison on the merits of each on which to base a final decision.
Sometimes I sorta envy people who just know they’re binary-trans because while they still gotta deal with a lot of aggravating bullshit… at least they have clarity, ya know? I mean, I realize this might be some “grass is greener” nonsense but nonetheless it occurs in my head sometimes.
Even us binary trans sometimes have our issues tho.
Cuz like, I’d take a dick if it were a cisdude dick… but the science isn’t there for me, personally, to be happy with a surgically attached one. (no, not even a transplant.) Especially with all the nerve issues and scarring and whatnot. Just… no thank you.
and sometimes I don’t despise my chest cuz I have awesome sensation and sometimes that’s fun. But like… on the other hand… god what wouldn’t I do to just have some scientist implant my brain and memories into a different body holy SHIT
Seeing some people on Tumblr still bitching about how it’s too late for voting and the only thing that will fix things is revolution.
How about you fucking vote anyway? It’s not going to seriously cut into your “sitting on the couch waiting for a revolution to start” time.
There’s no “none of the above” option here. You want a revolution, fine, but there’s still little shit to do in the meantime.
You can vote AND protest. They’re not exclusive. Hell, you can even protest the person you voted for when they fuck up. You’re not signing a blood oath with your ballot. But a desire for an ideologically pure candidate or nothing only serves the status quo right now.
“I’m not cis I’m just a man how dare you label me~”
Dude. it’s not an insult. Just like trans isn’t an insult. You are not the default, and having a label describing your gender isn’t making you something you’re not. It’s literally applying a scientific term to what you already are. Calm the fuck down.
i feel like slughorn is a MUCH better example of a flawed but lovable character than snape and yet here we are
slughorn says stupid crap like expressing shock that muggleborn wizards and witches can be so talented but he also treats all his students equally in terms of academics, point distribution and desire to educate. the slug club is an example of his slytherin ambition but literally all he seems to want is like. to have his letters read and some free candy and to live comfortably. he loves his students a lot and actively avoids associating with death eaters. he believes in merit above all and is wowed by skill and character regardless of blood status or background. hes a nice flawed old man and hes way better than snape i dont CARE we stan the real potions master
slughorn pineapple potter, you’re named after the okayest man i ever knew
…we gonna forget that he tried riding on all his “famous” students’ coattails tho and emotionally manipulated Hagrid into letting him take potion ingredients from the corpse of his; admittedly ODD; “best friend” ?
Quietly racist/prejudiced, petty, and overtly showing favoritism to “high fliers” over “mundane” students isn’t the worst thing in the world, true. But Slughorn is JUST as biased as Snape, if not nearly so overt as to blatantly favor Slytherin over Gryffindor. Is house favoritism worse than individual favoritism…?
“Harry wasn’t sure whether he liked Slughorn or not. He supposed he had been pleasant in his way, but he had also seemed vain and, whatever he said to the contrary, much too surprised that a Muggle-born should make a good witch.”
He’s also a damned hypocrite, saying that teachers shouldn’t have favorites, and then telling Harry to his face that Lily was one of his. (Not only, ONE of.) Points for honesty…? But how does that balance I wonder~ Particularly since he’s involved in corruption by utilizing school connections and the student-teacher relationship to meddle in Ministry affairs, AND getting kickbacks in the form of tickets and the ministry overlooking certain behaviors. He’s also used house elves as tasters instead of using a detection spell for poison, which is problematic at best, yeah? You’ve got the whole of magic at your fingertips and you’re going to use another living creature instead of your wand, mate? Nice~
Sure. He never fought for Voldemort; either by coercion or free will; and there’s something to be said for his ambition not blinding him to the potential harm in other Dark wizards. BUT. Is his small minded pettiness and blood-based ambition really any better than Snape…?
Generally, yes. This 5 week old foster kitten is still learning how to not be covered in food and got particularly gross. I do not anticipate too many future baths as he is slowly learning.
oh jeez… the amount of times Lilith at barely 3wks (abandoned feral kitty) got what should have been in the litter tray all over her butt and legs and didn’t know enough to clean herself meant she got very many butt-baths as a smol.
Cats are self cleaning. Kittens, on the other hand, need some help.
hopin Sir can bring me ginger ale and molasses piggies
my stomach has been my enemy since early yesterday morning.
House Of Crows 